{"id":414,"date":"2015-10-06T16:37:15","date_gmt":"2015-10-06T21:37:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.gilcanrun.com\/?p=414"},"modified":"2015-10-06T16:37:15","modified_gmt":"2015-10-06T21:37:15","slug":"one-last-run-before-hartford","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.gilcanrun.com\/?p=414","title":{"rendered":"One last run before Hartford"},"content":{"rendered":"

So I decided to just take one more little jog<\/a> around the neighborhood. I took it a little slower and a little easier today. Don’t want to risk an injury and my knees and ankles have been feeling a little iffy the last couple days. So just a little stroll, and shut it down until Saturday.
\nIt’d be nice to get paid to do this all the time, run and talk about it. But I’m not fast enough for that to happen. While I know I could be faster, I’ll never be fast enough, I’ll never BQ or do any of the “exciting” things people get paid for in this sport. I’m just a guy, out on the road, with way too much on my mind at any given time. It can be interesting just letting your mind go when you’re out there, and it’s a good time to let it happen, because once the running stuff is automatic, what else can you do but sort shit out?
\nToday, I just kind of relaxed. Thought a bit about insecurities, we all have them, some deal with them better than others. The only thing I am secure about, is the fact I can be insecure. It’s strange though, because I don’t feel like I don’t measure up to my goals and ideals and whatnot, I feel like the people I care about feel I don’t measure up. And there’s the problem, I shouldn’t and generally don’t give a crap about what people think about me personally, unless I have to deal with them on a daily basis and they are someone who I should care about, family, close friends, and that’s pretty much the whole list. When they make me feel I’ve failed them, it kind of hurts.
\nBut it was a great day to run, cool, sunny, not humid at all. I’ve been putting in really good times all week, for the past couple weeks, and I do feel strong and ready to go on Saturday. With just three more months to go, and so close to my goal, I feel like I’m pretty much through the woods, and the other side is looking pretty nice! So have fun, keep running, and remember if Gil can run then so can you!<\/p>\n

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