{"id":464,"date":"2015-10-21T19:39:23","date_gmt":"2015-10-22T00:39:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.gilcanrun.com\/?p=464"},"modified":"2015-10-21T19:39:23","modified_gmt":"2015-10-22T00:39:23","slug":"apparently-take-it-easy-has-lost-meaning-to-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.gilcanrun.com\/?p=464","title":{"rendered":"Apparently “Take it easy” has lost meaning to me"},"content":{"rendered":"

So I went out, and I said “tonight, I’ll take it easy” and the next thing you know I did this<\/a>. I felt good, so I just kept moving. Tomorrow, I will try to just go at the pace I want to run for Philly. Since I’m still too fast. I guess it’s true, once you recognize the decisions you are subconsciously making, you can change them and change what you’re doing. What’s upsetting with this is I wanted to run Branford this year in under 40 minutes and I failed miserably. Granted, out and back down State St is flatter, but still, this was just a training run.
\nOther than that, my day was simple, argued with some friends over gun control, seriously folks, enough with the guns already, clearly more aren’t helping. Also had a nightmare about an ex friend. Here’s the thing with me, and a song I heard on the run got me thinking about this. When I am rejected, when someone judges me “not worthy”, it’s not ego that makes me hurt, it a desire to absolutely destroy that bridge. Pouring some gasoline and striking a match is not good enough, no pillar can be left standing. It’s just not cool.
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