Beat, the word for today is beat

So I took it slow today. I will keep it slow and short until I feel recovered. Tomorrow will be easy, as I’m only doing a mile, and then Tuesday I’ll see how I’m feeling, but probably not more than 5 or 6 miles tops. This has been, by far, the most difficult marathon recovery I’ve had. I’m starting to get a little worried, but the good news is it’s all over in a couple weeks.
As of today I am within 100 miles of my target distance for the year. I only have one more marathon to run, two races left on my schedule for the year, and then I’m taking it easy to start next year, and working on speed and overall fitness. I still can’t think of any real goal for next year besides a sub 20 minute 5 k. That’s it. I think that’s a taller order than anything I’ve asked of myself out of running before, honestly.
So yesterday at my father’s place, my half-brother had his girlfriend (I guess) over? I’ve never met her, I don’t really have much of a relationship with my half-brother, which doesn’t need to be gotten into. But anyway, I didn’t really interact with her or him, I tend to spend my time giving attention to my nieces and nephew, it’s just the way I am. Plus, I generally dislike meeting new people, it makes me feel intensely uncomfortable. Many people that know me, will probably be surprised to learn that, I do a very good job of hiding it when I have to.
But he had to leave for work and she had to leave to go home, and for whatever reason, my half-brother says, “And that’s my brother Chris over there with the receding hairline” because he wasn’t in the room when we were introduced originally. Now, I’ve my hair hasn’t really moved anywhere since I was about 25 or so, and I’m not particularly concerned about it either way. I don’t understand why people have to be like that though. There was no kindness in what he said, no jocularity. There was completely unwarranted jealousy and insecurity though. I’ve always felt like all my siblings are in some sort of contest with me, and I’m simply not competing. I’m sure they would argue this point, but I really never cared. But my point is, there’s no reason to say things like that about people. It only bothers me insofar as he meant for it to diminish me, and to me it was to some stranger. Not cool, not cool at all.
But I doubt he will ever examine the meaning behind, the motives behind, the things he says. I think most people don’t, and I think that’s why we don’t progress. Think about why you say the things you say and think the things you think. Always examine your thoughts and attitudes, and check them against facts and decency. I think that’s the only way to get better as a person, and I think it’s the only way our society can get better, and obviously we require improvement.
Well hey, 4 days done, 33 to go. Have fun, keep running, and remember if Gil can run then so can you!


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