Monday Runday!
Yep, I ran on a Monday. After the weekend, I had to get out there and what a gorgeous day! I will give a full mid-year run down tomorrow. So what was going on in my head while running today? Well, mostly I was thinking about what my friend said to me Saturday night at the Morrissey concert. She noted that while we were walking down the street after the bar, on our way to MSG, that as I was being my usual, bombastic, hilarious, entertaining self, many of the women we were passing were taking time to check me out. I never in my life considered, or noticed, anyone checking me out. This revelation was a surprise to me.
I am equally shocked, amazed, scared, and feeling weird about all that. I suppose I’m not a bad looking person, or I’m that entertaining, one or the other maybe both? So that occupied a bit of time, I mean how often do you really think about something like that.
The rest of the time I extended those thoughts into what does it mean as far as how “good” a person I am. Then that turned into the thoughts of how I need to be kinder, more gentle, more peaceful, more loving. Because that’s what I want to see in the world, and if I want to see those things I need to be those things, because what we are makes up the world around us. We all make the decision of how our world will be when we make the decision as to how we will treat the world at each moment.
Be the change, right, you hear it all the time. But it’s really true. I don’t need to be world peace, I just need to be peaceful, and my peace will extend out, and it will grow. If we all lead by example, we would end up getting the world right. I hear the saying all the time, “Like a boss”. I don’t want to be like a boss, I want to be a leader, and not for my own good, but for the betterment of all. I don’t need to lead to gain resources, or money, or power, I want to lead because I want the world to be a better place, because I want everyone to lead. If I want everyone to be a leader, to be self-sufficient and yet empathetic enough to take care of all our brothers and sisters, then I must do it. And when people are treating me with disrespect, anger, aggressiveness, or any other negative emotions, I must not return that to them. I must stay true to what I want to see in the world, and embrace them and their violence, and show them that I offer a different path, a better path. Not only in a board sense, but in that moment.
But when I fail, I will acknowledge my failure, apologize where needed and move on to be better then next time.
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