Not a lot of energy
No, tonight I was tired, it was hot, I got a bit dehydrated, and I just did not have any gas in the tank. It was a great run though that I kept moving. So I am a bit bothered that tomorrow is my last day at my job. time to start figuring things out for real.
But all I could think of tonight, and this is a weird one, was how when I was a kid and my parents sent me to counselling, ostensibly because of my troubles with their divorce (so nice of them to think it was all about them!), how I was talking to the therapist about Timothy Leary, and she thought I was talking about Dennis Leary. Now, Dennis Leary is very entertaining and all but I was talking about Timothy Leary, who was a psychologist. He also promoted the use of LSD, but that’s not what I was interested in. I never really gave a damn about drugs and didn’t think there was much value in them. But, did she not know who he was, or did she not think a kid would know about his ideas?
That’s a common theme in my life, I’m talking about A and people think I mean B. For a long time it made me feel like there was something wrong with me. To be honest, I still kinda do. It’s strange and difficult to explain. I feel stupid, all the time, yet I know I’m not. I am full of doubt and insecurity often, and yet I know I shouldn’t be. It makes things difficult, but hey, we all have our own hurdles in life right? So just need to keep going and do your best with what each new day brings. So have fun, keep running, because is Gil can run, so can you! But stay hydrated!
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